Words can be so many, but when You speak I'm hanging on every one
And it may seem so long to tary in the night, but I'm captivated by Your love.
Faith may seem so shaken, but upon You I stand.
And love a cymbal clanging, then I see the scars in Your hands
Where may I go but unto You?
You are the source that I cling to.
All of my fountains are in You.
Giver of Life
Songs may be so many, a simple melody I bring.
And could my heart compose it? But You are my Strength and Song.
My heart flowing within me, I have no good apart from You.
And could I but declare it? But it is You who loose my tongue.
Where may I go but unto You?
You are the source that I cling to.
All of my fountains are in You.
Giver of Life.
Where may I go but unto You?
You are the strong tower I take refuge.
All that I am be unto You
You are I am.
Where can I go? does not my heart burn within me?
Is not my soul consumed for Your law?
Your words are Spirit and Life unto me
Your Name I do recall.
To Him Who is able to keep me from stumbling
To You Who will catch me when I fall
To You my strength when I am weary
Your Name I do recall.
Monday, October 15, 2007
Monday, October 8, 2007
My dream this week
October 4th 2007
I had a dream that I was enrolled in college classes again. I was training intentionally for a role I would have in the future (not just going to college for the sake of going to college). My first day of classes was great except for the fact that I was five minutes late to my first class because I couldn't find it at first. My schedule consisted of five classes, and an hour break in between my first and second class.
The first day of classes was great, but afterwards to celebrate the school year everyone went to this theme park. When I got to the theme park, my dream went from being in color to being in this awful yellowish "old film" type of lense I was seeing through. I didn't even go on any of the rides like my classmates were, just walking around for 3 minutes, I was SO exhausted that I went home and slept, but didn't wake up until the next day at 5. And I figured "well...I missed the first half of my day why not skip the rest of my day?". So I slept the whole day, and woke up on time for class on day 3, but had to make up for day 2. And I was so worn out from catching up (I caught up on classes during my break), that I was like "I need to just chill and have some fun". So I went with some classmates out to the theme park again, and was tired after 15 minutes of being there, and started feeling sick. So I went home sick, and didn't practice my piano. I slept through my first class on day four, and through my break, but got to my class at 4:15, and made it through the rest of the day. Each day in this school went on as such...trying to catch up, constantly behind, always late to something, or late with some assignment, never really having it all together, always exhausted, always burned out, and always at this theme park with my classmates after school or during break. I never really liked being at this theme park, but it was the place to be, and it seemed to be the only way to be with others, but we never really talked or did anything meaningful. I remember thinking sometimes "well maybe eventually I'll build relationships with people here, and then we can stop going to this theme park and go to my house and talk about real things, and build real friendships". But each time I left empty, but more than empty in the long run. The theme park drained the life out of me, every time I went. I felt like a loser for getting drained out so quickly when others seemed to be having so much fun. The theme park drained me of so much energy, that I would sleep longer than I wanted to sleep, and in the long run I ended up sleeping through alarms several times, and not making it to class. The dream ended in Worship Team Practicum. I fell asleep during class, and slept through a fire drill. That afternoon, we also had a tornado but I'd missed the drill before and didn't know what to do, and no one else did either. I saw the tornado coming, and a fire, and tried to run, but didn't know where the shelter was, I ended up crying by this gigantic fountain and a teacher found me and grabbed my wrist in a painful position and ran with me to safety and then started yelling "where were you during the drill? You could've ran to safety! And where have you been during class? Those credit hours count toward your degree...Anna wake up. How can a young man or woman keep his way pure? By TAKING HEED according to the word of God!"
It's time for us to train, and wake up and take heed according to the word of God
I had a dream that I was enrolled in college classes again. I was training intentionally for a role I would have in the future (not just going to college for the sake of going to college). My first day of classes was great except for the fact that I was five minutes late to my first class because I couldn't find it at first. My schedule consisted of five classes, and an hour break in between my first and second class.
The first day of classes was great, but afterwards to celebrate the school year everyone went to this theme park. When I got to the theme park, my dream went from being in color to being in this awful yellowish "old film" type of lense I was seeing through. I didn't even go on any of the rides like my classmates were, just walking around for 3 minutes, I was SO exhausted that I went home and slept, but didn't wake up until the next day at 5. And I figured "well...I missed the first half of my day why not skip the rest of my day?". So I slept the whole day, and woke up on time for class on day 3, but had to make up for day 2. And I was so worn out from catching up (I caught up on classes during my break), that I was like "I need to just chill and have some fun". So I went with some classmates out to the theme park again, and was tired after 15 minutes of being there, and started feeling sick. So I went home sick, and didn't practice my piano. I slept through my first class on day four, and through my break, but got to my class at 4:15, and made it through the rest of the day. Each day in this school went on as such...trying to catch up, constantly behind, always late to something, or late with some assignment, never really having it all together, always exhausted, always burned out, and always at this theme park with my classmates after school or during break. I never really liked being at this theme park, but it was the place to be, and it seemed to be the only way to be with others, but we never really talked or did anything meaningful. I remember thinking sometimes "well maybe eventually I'll build relationships with people here, and then we can stop going to this theme park and go to my house and talk about real things, and build real friendships". But each time I left empty, but more than empty in the long run. The theme park drained the life out of me, every time I went. I felt like a loser for getting drained out so quickly when others seemed to be having so much fun. The theme park drained me of so much energy, that I would sleep longer than I wanted to sleep, and in the long run I ended up sleeping through alarms several times, and not making it to class. The dream ended in Worship Team Practicum. I fell asleep during class, and slept through a fire drill. That afternoon, we also had a tornado but I'd missed the drill before and didn't know what to do, and no one else did either. I saw the tornado coming, and a fire, and tried to run, but didn't know where the shelter was, I ended up crying by this gigantic fountain and a teacher found me and grabbed my wrist in a painful position and ran with me to safety and then started yelling "where were you during the drill? You could've ran to safety! And where have you been during class? Those credit hours count toward your degree...Anna wake up. How can a young man or woman keep his way pure? By TAKING HEED according to the word of God!"
It's time for us to train, and wake up and take heed according to the word of God
Monday, October 1, 2007
Why not just show me Lord?
I have often become frusterated with myself and the Lord as I continue on this journey in life. I mess up, then afterward go "Lord...why didn't you just stop me? Or give me a big flashing neon sign that says 'HEY ANNA DON'T GO THERE!'" I came across this verse.
Proverbs 29:19 "By mere words a servant is not disciplined, for though he understands, he will not respond."
Even if we understood the rules, and followed all of them, our hearts wouldn't respond! The Lord is after our hearts to RESPOND to Him, the Lord not only chastens those he loves, but He brings us trials so that our hearts will learn to come to Him first as our only source! We live not upon physical food alone, but upon EVERY word that proceeds from the mouth of Jesus Christ the only one able, and the only true fountain of life. He is inviting us to drink and never thirst for another lover again! He is calling, and if you sit there doing nothing at His call He will count that as your response. He is a lover, and He is after Your heart, let your response be love.
Proverbs 29:19 "By mere words a servant is not disciplined, for though he understands, he will not respond."
Even if we understood the rules, and followed all of them, our hearts wouldn't respond! The Lord is after our hearts to RESPOND to Him, the Lord not only chastens those he loves, but He brings us trials so that our hearts will learn to come to Him first as our only source! We live not upon physical food alone, but upon EVERY word that proceeds from the mouth of Jesus Christ the only one able, and the only true fountain of life. He is inviting us to drink and never thirst for another lover again! He is calling, and if you sit there doing nothing at His call He will count that as your response. He is a lover, and He is after Your heart, let your response be love.
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